Long Night.

Watched two movies today with the coolest.

Venting Much?

For the past weeks of school. I've been trying VERY hard to be make myself happy and being myself. But really I'm not.. If you guys think I wasn't sad at once at school then dam. I'm a good actor.

Dude I think I actually have some issues about life and its like bugging the hell out of me. Like I'm trying to understand why the heck I don't got the same feeling that I had last year. And I'm trying to understand why i hate being at home and rather to be school? *No issues with the parents btw) What the heck? I don't understand why i've been swearing a lot in school and not hanging out with my old friends as I did before. Did like the wrestling camp took the life out of me or something?!?!. I feel like im not even the same Deirman than i knew before. Im mentally getting weaker and weaker now and like I thought I'm like the happiest person there is??!?! Where the heck did it all go.. Home is not the place to be when your in my position.. Having no one to talk to you. Is there some type of reason why this happen to me? . Its basically boring... I believe that I'm starting to have no social life?? but the weird this is when I'm at school im starting to lose touch on what i had before. Well pretty gay because now i don't even talk to my so call bestfriend S____ maybe because she has her hands full with her boyfriend? but why blame her though maybe shes having a ACTUALLY better life than me? I FEEL LIKE CRAP RIGHT NOW WHY IS THAT? I shouldn't be hiding this feeling right now but im sorry that i never really tell anyone about this because I sometime keep my emotions to myself. I just need someone to talk to -.- hella desperate... I know. Well the other weird thing is im not even sad im just irritated?! ugh what ever. Don't worry about me guys I'm just emotional sick and i guess i need time to think about what I'm doing to myself. I'll try to make myself feel better everyday. Just need someone to talk to make me feel better..

Bali

Bali was the best vacation I've been too. Its great over here. The atmosphere was very interesting. I did a lot of stuff over here, to bad I'm to lazy to type all of it. We stayed in a nice house with a nice caretaker also. We did a lot of tours in the culture of Bali. We BOUGHT A LOT OF STUFF. Went to a nice beach to watch the sunset. MAN! its so awesome. I wish i can one day take you guys with me over here. Well only the people who love the outdoors and nature.

I kind of missed playing my xbox and playing with my pals. I MISS YOU GUYS!! I'm coming home today at 9 pm I think. So if you guys wanna camp out in front of my house sure! go ahead haha. Can't wait to tell you guys everything I did in Bali. Gonna upload some pictures soon also

Taiwan!

Yeah Im on blogspot in the Taiwan Airport. The only thing that sucks was that i can't go on myspace =(. Anyways the flight was pretty cool. They had a t.v screen built in on the seats which was fun. I was playing pong the whole flight. To bad I cant show you a picture =(. The only thing that sucked about the flight was that the food was terriable like forreals. It looks nice but really it doesn't. Well now I gotta wait i think 2 hours for my flight to bali so yeah. I'll try to go on the internet again to give you the updates iight!. Peace